This week is one of those weeks where the push is going to shove and I will be spread too thin that I may crack in places. I have two weeks left at school and next Tuesday, I have my final conference with my ULT that will decide my grade and ultimately decide whether I have QTS at the end of this year. This is so much pressure because if I don't get QTS, the job that I managed to secure for September will not be my job and I'll have no prospects for the future. That literally scares me the living daylights out of me because I just don't want to think about not passing my school experience and not getting QTS.
On top of having my final conference, I need to make sure that my school experience folder is complete and that everything that I need to put in it, is in it. Including everything that I potentially may have slacked on. It's hard to constantly come home and do work that you don't want to do. It's hard but I try and force myself to do it because otherwise it goes on top of you. Teaching is hard enough, standing in front of the class is difficult but dealing with the paperwork afterwards is equally hard. Especially if you haven't had a good day at school- sometimes I think I'm the worst teacher in the world and some days I don't think I'm far wrong with that judgement.
Anyway, today I have a P.E. observation with my teacher and if you know me, you know that there is no P.E. liking bone in my body. I don't know how to teach P.E. and so we'll see how it goes tomorrow (I'll let you know!). I'm hoping it goes well because I know that if it does, I have another observation on Thursday and I definitely won't feel good about being observed again in the same week if it doesn't go well.
My observation on Thursday is my last observation but is a joint one. Not only will my teacher be observing me but so will my ULT. EEK.
So much pressure!
And then my birthday weekend will definitely be spent trying to sort out my folder for my final conference. There's so much to do and so little time. I'm freaking out just a little.
How's your week looking?
I'm hoping it's a lot less stressful than mine
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