Observed!

Yesterday I was observed by my university tutor and I was so scared. I had planned a whole hour lesson on time and had thought very carefully about the activities that I wanted to do and what I would say in order to clear. I was so nervous on Sunday night and didn't sleep at all even though I wasn't being observed until Tuesday. The lack of sleep on Monday put me in a vile mood and I couldn't find a way to stop myself from being in a bad mood. It didn't help my planning and worry for Tuesday. 

But I walked in yesterday with everything planned and thought, this is it; I'll give it my best shot. Anything that is negative will only be used to make me better. I don't need to be perfect. I do get annoyed when I am not perfect because I just want to do everything well. It does frustrate me a lot when I'm not. But I can't hold that against myself because being perfect is impossible.

I just tried to forget about the woman sitting at the back observing me and focusing on making sure that the children I was teaching understood exactly what I was teaching. After a while, I forgot all about being observed and did my thing. I found it relieving once the main input had been and gone because I knew I only had 6 children to teach for the rest of the lesson. Things didn't go perfectly and I found a lot of things that I wasn't happy with.

BUT, she said that I did really well and that I was definitely in the right profession to be a teacher. Her first comment was that I was a friendly and confident teacher and that made me smile. I am glad that I didn't't completely bomb. And the few negative comments I had was about making sure my voice matches my teacher role. Apparently, my voice is too soft so I need to work on that. And I also need to work on making sure every child is listening to me before I start talking. I end up panicking and talking just to hope they'll all settle down. 

Maybe I was born to teach...

I have a lot more weeks to refine my teaching style but she said that I was doing well and I only hope that I get better and better the more I teach. I'm going to think positively because if I didn't fail on my first observation, I'm doing something right!!

And now I can breathe and continue teaching without all the stress.

Also, we've finally hit the 10 countdown mark. How exciting. It is just around the corner and I'm so excited!!

xxx